say a prayer to my lust
forge me in fire
turn sand to dust
while i conspire
"LIAR"
someting once a must
starts to rust

I want to sleeeeeppppp soooo muccchhh!!!
I have been forbidden from napping, yet I still can't sleep at night. I may go insane, I'm living off coffee at the moment (which I'm also not sposed to do but oh well!) It probably dosn't help that when I sleep I have started picturing guitar hero notes... I'm not obsesed or anything (well much anyway)
I'm so fed up I'm even writting a new journal arghhh !
Most of the time I'm too busy with uni to write or draw anymore (and when I do I normally play guitar hero now), yes I am lame.
Plus the flow of alcohol has also been stopped now, seeing as I can no longer be trusted to 'behave' when I'm out. I feel like a 16 year old again ... and act it some of the time. hmmm ... what's so great about being a grown up anyway??? There's the best thing about my family, they value childhood, although to the extent that none of them behave better than teenagers, so I guess I have the argument I don't know better...
anyway Ive rambeled and ranted enough, I should go try and sleep again... or something.

I guess I should be happy that I'm returning to uni soon. MY holidays have practically been spent alone due to the lack of friends in my local area (oh how i hate the people here) and going back to people who i actually do like should be marvy, but all i feel is bitter resentment that thier holidays get 2 b better with friends and real holidays and such. I wish i wasnt so bitter, i feel like a monster and I'm not even back yet I officaly suck at being a decent human being. All i wish is tht i got to all the things they do *sigh*
all i feel is nervosity

and I know all the spelling and such is really bad, im just too tired to change it

so going to uni very soon a week away exactly! v.scared and v.excited all ups and down-ness!! No idea how I'm going to cope yet, im still so small, lol!
And I'm still quite new to this site, and looking for cool artists and inspiration.
Yeah apart from that life is a bit dull, however better than the packing i will soon have to do!